Wednesday, January 25, 2012

becoming it.

i feel like within the last few months i've really had a lot on my heart that i've been sorting through with the Lord and processing things on my mind with scooter. and when i talk to some of my closest friends around me, it feels like there's something each person is going through that is just making life tough. some trials are greater than others and some handle them differently than others but i feel that a lot of us are carrying burdens that just plain suck. yes, i said suck. 

my sister is a nurse and occasionally she'll call with stories about her day. sometimes they're funny, sometimes they're heart wrenching, and sometimes they're spiritual. the other day she called and told me that she was having a really boring shift and then a fellow nurse called her into the next room and asked her to help her put an IV into a one-year-old's vein. now i know from personal experience how hard it is to get a one-year-old to sit still long enough for someone to poke their arm with a needle, so it didn't surprise me that they needed three nurses to hold the babe down. 

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(sister with miles when he was so little!)

the nurse had such a hard time getting the IV in that she had to keep trying over and over again and my sister said it just broke her heart to watch the little baby scream and cry and look up at them wondering why they were hurting him so bad. she said she wished she could just say, "don't worry! it's almost over and it will help you feel better before you know it!" she said it made her think of the Lord. because she wonders how many times he sits there watching us have to go through a struggle or a trial - some big and some small - and thinks to Himself, "if only you knew that this will be over before you know it and it will make you stronger in the end."

i think sometimes we have the tendency to wonder, "why is life so hard?" i do it all the time and my life is pretty golden right now in comparison to what is has been or could be. but in the midst of those struggles when you lose the home you've dreamed of, or your marriage hits rock bottom, or you find out a family member is sick....it just seems like life is hard. it is, right? but at some point we've got to stop talking about how hard it is and start realizing that there is a reason we're in this valley and that we'll come out on the other side. 

i feel like in those moments God is just longing to be enough for us. he just wants to be it. and i've learned from enough experience in my life that he will bring me to that place of realizing it over and over again until i really, truly learn it. and the past week or so, i've really had this clarity in my head [once again - cause God seems to have to teach me this like 87 times a month] that he just longs for us to rest in His satisfaction and His contentment instead of wishing for different circumstances. 

it is so easy to focus on the hard things every day but i'm missing the huge point. God wants me to be content in Him now. now - no matter where i'm at. no matter what trial i'm going through. no matter how many times he has to poke me with an IV to get it in the right vein - he wants to be it [all the time]. and we can't waver. we have to know that He is enough. [all the time.] regardless of the circumstance and regardless of what happens in the end - He just simply has to be enough and we have to be okay with that.

1 Timothy 6:6 says, "Godliness with contentment is great gain."
my prayer is that God takes me to a place where He is it.

25 comments:

  1. Im literally crying and loving you so much.....prayers for all of us in our hard times...

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. I love the example you share, and I totally understand God having to teach things 5 million times before they sink in. So grateful to serve a patient and loving Lord!

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  3. So well put. I'm in the same boat and this was amazing to read :)

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  4. thank you! as always, you help me to see things in such a different perspective. "cause God seems to have to teach me this like 87 times a month" - yup! i totally get this. and really don't want to be that way. i pray things are settled in your heart and mind :)

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  5. Wow, this was a wonderful post. I feel like I will be rereading this one a lot. It speaks to me in so many great and weird ways. Thank you for being you and going beyond the words and expressing them in this post. Seriously, thank you.

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  6. Beautiful...just beautiful! Oh so true!

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  7. words spoken straight from the heart of the Father. thank you, Katy. i have that same prayer in my own life.
    "he just wants to be IT"--so powerful.
    lots of love.

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  8. Amen! Thanks so much for sharing this. I needed to hear it today. xoxo

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  9. gosh, i read this and i KNOW it but why must i learn it over and over again? i think i'm up to 89 times a month ;)
    seriously though, i wish it would just stick with me because He IS completely enough and i hate that i constantly try to do it in my own strength. i love that scripture at the end. love you.

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  10. hit me straight through the heart. thanks katygirl.

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  11. katy i needed to read this. it could have come at a better time.
    thank you.

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  12. okay so no more complaining about pregnancy:) read this quote this morning durning my devotions and thought it kind of went with what you wrote...."What if, sometimes, there are mists and fogs so thick that I cannot see the path? ‘Tis enough that You hold my hand, and guide me in the darkness; for walking with You in the gloom–is far sweeter and safer than walking alone in the sunlight!
    thanks for sharing Katy. love you.

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  13. You have no idea how badly I need to read this today...thank you SO very much!

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  14. hi katy... I don't think I've commented on your blog in a very very long time (my google account was being really stupid and wouldn't let me comment on any blogs), but I read every post you write and I always come away smiling or blessed in some way. THIS post was perfect. I too know so many people going through hard times and trials right now, and of course there's always our own struggles we each have, and as I read this I just kept thinking "amen. amen. amen, amen, amen, AMEN!!!" God IS enough, and each trial has its divine purpose. Like it says in one of my favorite verses in James: "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
    If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting..." thanks for sharing this today with us all. I loved every word you wrote. It is a good God we serve!

    this comment is already way too long, but I just wanted to actually say congratulations to you on your baby girl!!! I'm thrilled for you and cannot wait to get a glimpse of this new cutie on your blog. :) you're an adorably adorable pregnant person too, just for the record. :)

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  15. very encouraging!!! thanks sister.

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  16. Thank you! I needed to read that today. I have been diagnosed with Meneire's and have had vertigo attacks lately. It is easy for me to be discouraged and sometimes fearful. Thank you for pointing me to the cross. Becca :-)

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  17. thanks for this post...you are so right. "He wants to satisfy us with HIMSELF." nothing else. that is the point. laboring to remember with you....

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  18. your words are perfectly perfect for me today and everyday.
    love you!!!

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  19. YES. All of it. Spot on. Read it twice. Thanks for the reminder!!! Great post!

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