on saturday morning, i will wake up another year older.
thirty-two, if you will.
and lately i've been reflecting on the last year of my life.
how it was, hands-down, one of the hardest years i've ever experienced.
and how there were days where i felt like it could not get much darker.
and how i didn't really tell anyone how hard it really has been for me.
it's a hard thing to admit sometimes - that you just feel lost with no light at the end of the tunnel.
but when i was in colorado a few weeks ago, i started to think realize that my life is really, really full.
and everywhere i went, in several different stores, there were these signs for sale.
they said, "life is beauty full."
and maybe it was because life was finally still & quiet around me,
or maybe it was because i missed my kids,
but i started to really believe it.
that my life is really full of beauty.
beauty is all around me, really.
in the way miles calls my name at 6am.
in the the way camden's eyes light up when i walk in the room.
it is in the way scott makes my coffee in the morning.
it is in the way the Lord is gracious towards me when i make mistakes.
it is even in the way i've had to learn to discipline my children.
life is beauty full even when the days are twice as long as they should be.
or three times as hard as they needed to be.
on saturday morning, i will wake up someone very different than i was when i turned thirty-one.
i will wake up more confident & less insecure.
i will wake up stronger & wiser.
i will wake up closer to the Lord.
i will wake up a better mother & a better wife.
i will wake up thankful for where i am right now.
for the beauty full life i have - even when days are hard.
and for the way the Lord has captured my heart this year and poured his mercy on me.
i will wake up thankful for the journey i am on and the lessons i have learned.
i will wake up refreshed. with a new perspective on today.
thirty-two will be an adventure.
i am excited to experience life's beauty.